I just hope and pray that after this day, everyday between the two of us will be alright. I really wanted to be with you all of my days. I want to be happy again, for real. Show who really I am. To be loved. To love. Cherished every day and night with you. I know I’ve been a bad creature to you…
sweet tho. :)
Maybe - Peabo Bryson & Roberta Flack www.youtube.com/watch?v=WTCMGLd6B10&sns=tw
it is bitter sweet- bitter amd sweet. bitter because i proved that once trust is broken,it will never be the exact same thing before. sweet,cause somehow,i know, deep inside her there’s a spot for me in her heart…i love her though i feel like giving up…but it’s not like an ordinary relationship that you can just let go. what we have is extra ordinary…we were extra ordinary individuals fall in love,apart and we never know what’s next.
if i could write a blog everynight to release the pain,i would. aand i should. she’s still the one,there will be no one like her. goodbye to yesterdays,and goodbye to pain. hello to a deeper pain. goodbye sweet yesterdays,and hello to bitter tomorrows.
it’ll never be the same, but this love of mine has no plan of changing nor giving up. God is on my side so I know,there’s no reason to stop loving you—though it hurts a lot,i would stay.
..I came from a break up last April And everyday that I try to live to live my life in a normal basis, I cant seem to put back myself in my proper place again—perhaps, i use to live my everyday life right beside her.
so here iam now, feeling so miserable martyr trying to overcome the pain, trying to overcome the wound that she made. she cut it once, and it healed, and then cut it again,deeper and deeper and deepest. She has no idea how much heartache i had with her; as if she cares to ask and step into my life again to reconcile and stitch this broken paper heart of mine.
i forgot how to sleep well, sleep good night and sleep with sweet dreams. Im having lazy mornings looing at myself at the mirror telling myself “she left you faggot” and then head back to my pillow hugging that damn tightly.
up today, it’s like a lifetime knowing she is ot mine; like a fish removed from it’s tank. i forgot how to sing love songs that sometimes i come to think that i have no reason to listen to it. I pity my broken heart. :(
it was like nights without stars, morning without sun—a gloomy cloud weather day everyday…everythng came back to gray…everything lost its seduction to live.I cant believehow this princess turned away from our castle and choose to be a beast-tearing-heart-monster. a gentle girl who stabbed me right into my heart. A lover that is now a monster for hurting her better half just like that. i cant brace myself away from her cause i know she is my home,my weapon and strength. id rather hold her cold thorned hands than to let it slip away.
i cant wish them goodluck cause im far better than her new one. not because i have some pride but its what i know is true..
the pain- it’s what urged me to write this thing…so someday when she decided to come back to me, she’ll be fragile of my heart—where she used to live everyday since march 3,2012; her home.
i miss you and i miss being happy
its been two months time til now i plead to live…live again with you til my life reach its burning night.
i willlove you-always to infinity and beyond.